It still lingers...

I had this very good friend when I was in Switzerland.
We would talk often - maybe at least every second day.
We would laugh a lot and it was happy days.
Sometimes we would get up to no good.
But it was all in the name of fun :-)

But when I came home,
it was like...
I had left our friendship behind.
It was like...
I had abandoned my best friend.
It was like...
it had existed in another time, another place, another life.
Yet the physical distance between us had lessened.

Something which was built upon
years and years of friendship,
Felt as if it had disappeared overnight.
Just like that. Gone.

Yet from time to time,
it still lingers.

Who Am I?

Standing alone. Stripped. Naked. Bare.
Of everything you've ever known,
of what you believed made you you.

There is a vastness, a void
that threatens to consume your being.
The world around you spins and spins
as the sounds inside your head
get louder and louder.

The world suddenly stops spinning,
and you erupt from deep within.
Your sorrow, your pain,
laid bare for all the world to see.

You fall to your knees,
sobbing like a lost child of god.
And you cry out to the heavens
Who Am I?

Embracing the present moment in 2010

Dear family and friends,

May 2010 be the year that we embrace the present moment. Let go of grudges, grievances and past failures. We cannot change what has passed and we cannot control the future. We can only be in the present moment and that's a powerful and wonderful thing :-)

Have a happy new year :-)

Love, Jackie :-)