Disappearing Act

I don't really know why, but right now I just feel like disappearing for a while.

This morning at home I logged onto Facebook and saw that 2 of my best buddies had joined and I was so excited and happy!!! Then as I was sitting and waiting for my ride to work, all of a sudden I felt the need to just get away from everything and everyone. No internet, no mobile, nothing.

I kinda just felt like getting away from everything that I knew - for a week or maybe two. I felt like totally disappearing and only my mum would be able to reach me...

I don't know why or what is happening to me. But as my SS told me - I must trust my vibe and create some stillness for reflection.

Maybe it's the thought of a specific someone, or the prospect of having to face my boss tomorrow after she found out about my plans to leave Switzerland from someone else! It is possibly these things, but I know that on a soul level, it is something much greater...

At the present moment I feel that something within me is not in alignment with my higher self. So I am feeling this push and pull which is uncomfortable. I think I am about to undergo a phenomenal transition on the spiritual level...

So let me just disappear for a while...

Emotions

I don't know why I am feeling a bit emotional these past few days. Perhaps it's something in the cosmos or perhaps it's something to do with my bio-rhythms...whatever that is!!!

They say that feelings and emotions are the language of the soul - so what exactly is my soul trying to say to me?? I guess I should quiet my mind and listen up more closely...

Yesterday, courtesy of Petra, we were volunteering at the Ironman Triathlon in Zurich. It was heaps of fun and an awesome experience!

Competing in any triathlon is no mean feat. It is a real test of fitness and more so a real test of the power of the mind. In yesterday's triathlon, the competitors had to swim 3.8km, cycle 180km and then run 42km!!! And all in a day's work!!! I cannot even begin to imagine how gruelling the whole exercise is!!!

After being on my feet and in the sun for almost 10 whole hours helping out, my head felt like it would explode by the time I finished up!!! And I was only doing mild labour compared to the athletes!!! I did get more exposure to the sun than I would have liked though and my guess is that I suffered from a mild case of heat stroke!

Anyway after finishing up with our volunteer work around 6.30pm, Petra and I started cheering the remaining competitors on, as they passed the volunteer's area. I think many of them were delirious by that time - since they started the competition at 7am that morning!!! The majority of them gave us a wave or a smile or a 'thanks' as we cheered and clapped them on. I wondered aloud to Petra whether the athletes would get annoyed with our cheering and she said no, that in fact they really appreciate it -and she was very right.

After a little while we headed over to the finishing area - the home stretch. It was amazing to watch these athletes muster up their last bits of energy and finish the race - the looks of relief on their faces as they ran the last 50 meters. But what touched me most was seeing these athletes being supported by their kids or their whole family even - including their family dog!!!

I saw maybe 3 or 4 athletes running down the home stretch holding the hands of their kids...and it just moved me so much!!! There was one memorable moment when three little kids started jumping up and down yelling - 'There's daddy! There's daddy! Quick! Quick!' and they ran out to their dad as he rounded the corner, and together the four of them ran to the finish line, hand in hand. It was so moving :-) I had to wipe tears from my eyes :-)

In the meantime there was this little girl maybe 2 years old in a pram next to me. Little blondie had such a cute smile and every single time I looked at her she would laugh and shy away from me. I didn't think I looked that funny!! hahah...:-) So I looked at her quite often just because her laugh and smile was so cute :-)

Anyway, speaking of emotions...this morning I saw a photo of my Soul Sista Eva from about a week or so ago with some old friends from Sydney who were visiting HK. Seeing the photo just made me miss her so much, and it made me miss my friends heaps too. And I got a bit teary-eyed! Something in the planetary alignments I tell you!!!

Who cares?

Waiting for my video to be uploaded on Facebook, I was browsing the Good News Network website (www.goodnewsnetwork.org)...And the stories there always move me in some way...

Sometimes I'm so busy doing my own thing, so busy in my world of technology that I forget. I forget that there are people out there who devote their time towards making this world a better place to live in. I forget that there are people that actually truly care for the well-being of others, for the state of the world in which we live in.

It's so easy to just forget sometimes because maybe we think the world is already a mess and beyond help. Perhaps we think that we alone cannot make a difference. Maybe we think...what good is it if I do something to help someone, to help the world around me and the person next to me just undoes what I go out to do?

What if we thought differently? What if you knew that you alone can make a difference to the world, by your actions, by your words? It all starts from somewhere. Quoting from Mohandas Ghandi..."Be the change that you want to see in the world."

Addicted

I am currently addicted to Facebook!!! Perhaps I will write more in my blog once the Facebook novelty wears off!!! :-)

Anyway, a few months ago Petra had sent me an invite to join Facebook. Honestly I wasn't all that keen on the idea. I didn't really know much about it, but to me it was like meeting random people online, which I am wary of. So I never joined.

Just last Monday I was chatting to my godsister on MSN and she told me I should join Facebook, and again I was still feeling reluctant about it and told her yeh, that I would check it out later!!! That evening when I got home from work I received another invite to join Facebook from another friend...and so I thought...well twice in one day...there must be something to it...so I will join!!!

And I did. And now I am addicted to it. I do not know why?! Perhaps it is being able to get in touch with friends from long ago. It is like this one place where you can go and see what your friends have been up to, send them short messages, see photos of each other. I think it is a really easy way to communicate with friends, especially if you don't really want to read long-winded emails or don't really have much time to write them personal emails! :-)

Also I think it's cool to see 'six degrees of separation' and who knows who and how :-) I feel like telling all my friends who are not already on Facebook to quickly jump on the bandwagon and see what all the fuss is about :-)

Well, I must get back to Facebook now :-)

Dream

Living in the present
Does not mean I cannot fantasize.
About you, about your warmth
Your kisses, your embrace.

Reality is what we create.
And sometimes I can only dream.
Dream until I can almost smell you.
Dream until I can almost taste you, and feel you.
Dream so that you become real.

The Vault

I never expected to see you.
And then you appeared
like an apparition.

I had almost forgotten
what you looked like.
All the memories of you
locked inside the vault
inside my soul.

But there you stood
in my reality.
And I called your name.
And you looked up
Equally surprised.

And you smiled.
And with that smile
You unlocked the vault
Awakening all the memories
inside my soul.

Technology

Oh wow! Who can believe that I am actually writing this post from a small hostel in Hamburg, using wireless internet from the hotel on my new Nokia E65?! I am writing this like I am texting...so a bit of a pain but it's a novelty at the same time! Plus not to mention that I am bored! :-)

Anyway I am in Hamburg for a metaphysical seminar on the Secrets of Atlantis by Diana Cooper. Those who know me very well will know that this is my kind of thing :-) Those who think they know me well but didn't know that part of me...well there you go :-). Well I am here purely for this seminar and I know it will be just awesome :-)